Nothing exciting is happening on my domestic front. I’m just stuck in a standstill with a malaise that I wish will not become something that’s hopeless. I haven’t been in the mood to do much and the whole Christmas spirit is sort of getting on my nerve.
I’ve been so self-absorbed that I even forgot to register the boy for his school next year. Fortunately, a place has been kept for him. And the best part is I skipped the whole process of speaking to his teacher during the year-end progress report. I made all sorts of excuses because I was really not in the mood of being told that my son is odd. He’s only odd because he doesn’t conform to their standard expectations of behavior and I’m still in two minds about sending him for an assessment.
I keep wondering how different can he be if he can tease us, laugh at our folly and differentiate the reasons why he loves us. Just the other day, he told me that my teacher will laugh at me because there’s a hole in my sleeve. (He thinks I go to school like him.) When I responded that I’m the teacher, he looked at me for awhile then answered: “The children will laugh at you.” And then went on to laugh out loud.
Hm… ss, I was feeling sick recently but after seeing my family doc, I was diagnosis perfectly alright… no high blood, low blood, normal heartbeat, eyes, ears, lung… all cleared except a mild cough…
But my doctor understand probably im undergoing some form of stress as i kept complaining giddyness, cant focus… and prescribe me some medication that sort of calm me down by reducing the chemical in my mind (due to thinking too much! haha!) and feeling peaceful. But of course he told me I cant always rely on it but at this point of time, he think I needs to relax myself before I really breakdown. The medication is not dependant, nevertheless most medicine abused will be addictive.
So maybe u want to consult ur doc too?
and I can see your concern about Gavin. Why not send him for an assessment… maybe the professional will proof Gavin’s school wrong?
wtpg: Thanks for sharing your experience. Glad it all went way for you. I think stress is the key culprit for your case. And yes, checking up is something I have to do soon rather than second guessing. For G, I think it’s more the fear of proving them right…
Comment by wtpg — Fri, 7 Dec 2007 @ 6:53 pm
Hey.. SS,
My love to Gavin.. and no matter what they say.. i know that he is very special in my heart…. 
I’m not gonna start on my 2 cents worth.. because I know that you know deep inside.. what you are gonna do.
You take good care..
Thanks MamaBok. Yes, I remember…you were always suggesting matchmaking Chloe and Gavin in our early blogging days. Hahaha…
Comment by Mama Bok — Sat, 8 Dec 2007 @ 7:00 am
I hope you’ll be feeling better soon.
Your boy is witty and funny.. just like a normal kid.
ZM: Thanks! I’m glad to hear some affirmation from you!
Comment by zara's mama — Mon, 10 Dec 2007 @ 11:45 am
Ahhh..! early days..!! we’ve come a long way eh..SS .. in blogging..!
MB:
Comment by Mama Bok — Tue, 11 Dec 2007 @ 2:16 am
SS… exactly tat my point… dont put urself in such ordeal any longer. it’s torturing. At least go for one assessment, hear what they say, be it postitive or negative. But ultimately you will still hv to assess what they say is right or wrong too. When necessary, seek 2nd. 3rd opinion… till u r convince.
But even G proven positive.. tat doesnt mean he is the odd one. It’s just that we are used to the normal/common style and lazy to get into a new one.
SS, I can understand ur fear. The fear to know the true esp when we actually sense the answer is clearer… but be strong, stay positive. As long as G is happy, playing & laughing, growing, eating & sleeping well… sensilble & loving ( i can see tat from ur blog.. kekek) sometime… I think the character wise is just a dot. and hopefully it may be a passing phase too and will outgrowth when he’s much older
Be strong & cheer up huh. You hv us around to share your joys & sorrow
wtpg: He’s happy…it’s true. Anyway, these things will get sorted out…eventually. Thanks for being around too and always trying to give me some positive point of views. I appreciate that.
Comment by wtpg — Tue, 11 Dec 2007 @ 10:21 am
Don’t worry. Once you are able to understand why Gavin behaves in a certain manner, and gotten professional advice on how to help him, you will feel better and get back your confidence.
Gavin is just special not odd.
KY: Yup, I hope so…
Comment by kwai yoke — Tue, 18 Dec 2007 @ 1:34 pm